I AM HAPPY.

I am happy.
Ain't it great?

I am happy.
and so are they.

I am happy.
everything's super.

I am happy.
i couldn't be better.

I am happy.
what more more can I say.

I am happy.

So very happy.

Happy.

Alive.

Im a loud, over reacting, sensitive girl

I cry at the silliest things,
laugh at dumb things,.

I hide when I want to be found,
run when I want to stay,
listen when i cant hear anymore
talk when Im speechless (so I end up rambling).

Im brave, when Im scared
Im laughing when Im in pain.

I eat ice cream with ketchup (IN MEMORY OF JANEANA)
I dance to the beat of anything
I sing, I act, I feel (go YLTG!!)

I have a hate-love relationship with the color pink
and toes can do the thumbs up!(TMI?)

Im weird,
and he gets that.

Im awkward,
and he loves that.

Im insane,
and he thinks its cute.

Im disgusting,
and he adores me.

I demand, and he gives.

I cling, and he holds on.

When im needy, he understands.

But when Im bad.
he tells me.

when Im wrong,
he makes me see..

When I need scolding,
he delivers.

AND ALL THE TIME HE HUGS ME.

Im lucky to have him,
and he says...

Nope, "Im luck to have you".

I am loud,over reacting, sensitive girl.


AND IM IN LOVE.

WALKING ALONE WITH SOMEONE

nothing hurts
than this.

its like you're with someone
but he cant see you,
feel you,
touch you...

its like he's there
but he's not...

so near. yet so damn far.

on moments like this
you should realize
the truth behind
the lies you've tried so hard to hide

on moments like this
you get hit by the truck of reality
and you just finally decide

to let go

to turn the other way

to run and never look back

to say goodbye,

farewell.

****anonymous

DREAMS

The night came and so did the dreams.

I was walking...
alone..
suddenly I was with someone
I couldnt see his face
But I know, I know him
Through the darkness we stumbled
I think I saw trees
(this so twilght-ty)
Through the darkness
He started calling my name
its as if he's so far, when I can feel him around me
I tried to answer back
but I didnt know what to call him
so I said, IM HERE...
He laughed, a cynic laugh
I knew from before
he said, no you're not
you're gone
and he laughed again

I was scared,
what did he mean?
Then as i tried to touch him
he left, i heard him leave
and it was dark
I couldnt find him
I screamed for a name
I cannot remember
I was lost
I was scared
I kept on running
and
I was alone
again...

I stopped searching
and realize the morning has come
I was at home
no trees..
..
no man..

I looked around me,
saw a picture of a guy I know that I know
(i seriously cant remember)
then the laughter came back
someone hugged me and said...

I woke up.

and yes, im still trying to figure out who the man was...
But when I think about what he said, I think I know what he meant..